It's cloudy. And, it's not raining. This kind of weather day after day makes me want to do nothing but sleep. I've been so sluggish; I actually congratulate myself when I get out of bed in the morning and make coffee.
I feel checked out. As excited as I am for this trip in five days, I wish so badly I could be at home. I miss my family and well, they are all pretty much too busy to miss me. Every time I call someone, I get a distracted, checked out person on the other line. Except for my grandmother. And, she is the number one person who should be distracted right now as my grandfather has had major health issues recently. But, she wanted me to know from the bottom of her heart that she loves me, that she is thinking of my trip, and that her prayers are with me. She always comes through when noone else does and I honestly don't think she has a CLUE that she is that person for me. She's like that with everyone. She loves people and esteems others more than herself; more than her current situation and more than her own emotions. I wish I could give her a big hug right now and tell her the same; that Grandpa being sick has consumed my thoughts lately and that I love them and miss them so much. Sometimes, a girl just needs her grandma. I'm stashing a photo of her in my Ukraine journal. Yep.
Five days!! I cannot wait to see the kids. And, all of my friends from afar. A big thank you to the humble person who gave me support recently and wanted to remain anonomous!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
zip-ah-dee-doo-dah
Dah. In t minus 11 days, I'll be watching out the window for Heather Morozov's van coming down the drive to pick me up and take me to the airport. She and her kiddos are watering my flowers for me while I'm gone, too. The friendships I've made here are amazing. I love Nashville. So much.
I am so excited too see "my" kids, to experience God in such an intense way again (oh, I've missed that), and to once again be reminded that there IS a purpose to all of this. Summer camp is amazing. Oh, yeah.
It will be a difficult ending to our time there, however. That 8 hour bus ride back to Kiev will be one of the hardest 8 hours of my life. Many of the kids have graduated this spring, so it is very possible that this will be the last time we see them or hear from them. That fact combined with harrowing statistics; well, it's not easy to digest. So, for now, I am asking God to help me focus on what He wants to accomplish this summer. And, for mental strength to focus on Him and not myself or my feelings.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of you who have given to this ministry in any way. Whether it was actual funding, prayer, asking me about it because you know it's important to me, or just listening to me when I need to talk about it. I love you all more than I am capable of showing.
I am so excited too see "my" kids, to experience God in such an intense way again (oh, I've missed that), and to once again be reminded that there IS a purpose to all of this. Summer camp is amazing. Oh, yeah.
It will be a difficult ending to our time there, however. That 8 hour bus ride back to Kiev will be one of the hardest 8 hours of my life. Many of the kids have graduated this spring, so it is very possible that this will be the last time we see them or hear from them. That fact combined with harrowing statistics; well, it's not easy to digest. So, for now, I am asking God to help me focus on what He wants to accomplish this summer. And, for mental strength to focus on Him and not myself or my feelings.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of you who have given to this ministry in any way. Whether it was actual funding, prayer, asking me about it because you know it's important to me, or just listening to me when I need to talk about it. I love you all more than I am capable of showing.
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